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aft tt went to sixth avenue wif kx, sarah, janet, dorothy, rachel n faith. ya we walked there while stelly n linying took cab there haha. anw!!!! now i noe y girls crossing roads is amusing. cos ah me n faith were walking in front. den we were crossing the road.. cross halfway.. den suddenly this car came. hahhahaha!! i stopped walking n started screaming!! hahahha n faith was still like huh?? wad? den she saw n we both were screaming together. hahaha. n the rest were like sian diao.
den we were eating icecream. yayy nice. den we played zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3.. haha drink water de. umm ya n we almost finished both the flasks of water there. hahaha.
den i went je lib to study chinese aft tt. like woahhh im actualli studying on a sat!! anw it was v v crowded there. den i studied 1 ke4.. n i fell asleep juz sitting there!! ya slept for an hour. haiyo. den studied a bit more aft tt n went home n fell asleep. haha n aft dinner i was studying again ok!! cos next week is v v packed-
mon: e math test on loci n transformations.
tue: chinese test.. 10 ke4. 2.4 run.
wed: napfa 5 stations. ny attempt to break the guinness world record of making the longest popiah. hahhaa.
thurs: prelims oral exam.
fri: elect geog test.
sat: ny walkathon.
anw popiah making is fun fun!! yeah cos it has been my family tradition since v long ago. n my dad makes superb popiah ok!! yay so im pro too. haiya n walkathon.. sian la. another sat taken up. plus next next sat is combined sports meet.. n the mon right aft tt is mid yrs!!
oh btw.. ytd i realised y i looked so flushed n red. hahhaa. ya cos i was at toa payoh.. den in the toilet.. was wondering y i looked so red. yah itz actualli cos i got sunburnt!! yeah haha. sat in the sun for almost 3 hours. haiya i cant get tanned la. ok but ytd i got slightly darker.. but not a lot. n it'll fade awae anw.
anw looking back at these 2 weeks i realised tt ive gained a lot. realli a lot. v glad tt i went for the wushu nats la. yeah.. for 3 days. v memorable la yeah.. the terribly long journeys thru little india to manjusri sec.. =/ meeting new ppl.. watching the competition.. praying n fretting everyday. anw sth tt struck me was tt i saw sth in sum1 tt i missed out on 1st impression. tts probably the 1st person who made me feel like tt in a long time. hmm ya so i wont judge ppl by 1st impression anymore. the qi4 zhi4 n nei4 han2 tt i felt in tt person is like woh even though we dun even noe each other la. ya n so i feel bad for the 1st impression tt i judged by. tts sth i learnt la.
hmm den sth in wushu.. itz v v extreme la. itz juz tt 1 n onli time up there on tt carpet for tt event. so if itz a flop den theres realli nth much u can do abt it no matter how hard u train la. so can get quite gek. but i guess tt's where every1 learns n work harder. like ytd.. tt ji ti dao1 grp i think.. wah ya even though i was hoping tt they wun do as well.. umm ya. i felt v v sad for them lo.. esp tt guy who dropped his dao juz b4 shou1 shi4. his teammates may say itz ok.. but the guilt n gekness he faces is realli a lot la.
den wad left an impression was watching ppl i noe perform for the 1st time la.
den abt other stuff.. i realli hafta thank my friends around. they may not have made me feel a lot better.. but a little at least. thanks to ppl of 414!! yay. n oso tong, ben n kaiming. friends may not b there all the time. like they alwayz pang seh me. but nvm im used to it. n i guess tts the way it is.
i made an abrupt fone call juz now. hmm u may think itz wu liao. but it meant sth to me.
it has been 2 weeks since wad happened. so fast la. all kinds of feelings came up. i was upset.. i was hopeful for things to turn better.. i thot it did, so i felt better. but no, nothing turned better. den this wk came n crushed me. the realisation on mon.. n so the hatred came. but it has gone. realli. things have been meaningless. ive been going around like a living dead with juz us in my mind. the storm was there for so long.. n 2 weeks ago i thot it had all ended n we wld see the rainbow. but no the storm came again. n im stil waiting - for tt day i see the rainbow, n i find the meaning of my life, n we find the ocean tt's meant for us. I won't watch my life crashing down on me
time;11:59 PM
this morning. sports meet. took mrt to yio chu kang. n yeah tong n i were on video duty. i was tired la. my eyes hurt so badly for the whole day. yeah n they were v swollen. oso i wasnt in a v gd mood.. n the whole thing was so sian.. plus so sunny!! hai we stood in the sun for almost whole 3 hours. anw thanks tong for understanding. she cld tell tt i wasnt feeling good i guess. yes i wasnt. i was sitting on the track.. n i cried. i realli cldnt help it la. i guess many ppl could tell la. thanks to 4/14 n uh weijia n gen for ur concern.
anw on the track ah.. weiqi was there.. den X came over n she was like, "WEIQI!!! AHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!" yah n i was like O.O i guess it was probably the 1st time i heard her scary laughter. ya itz reali freaky. n itz v obvious wad she was up to. asking abt cs la.
aft tt went for lunch wif dorothy, janet, kx, they all la. at j8.. so on the way.. i realli buay tahan.. felt like juz not going at all. cos i almost cried. it was v terrible la. but i geked a lot. so yeah.. i was basically looking stoned for the whole day. wif tt same expression. esp in the morning.
it was fine at j8 la haha. felt slightly better. oh n there happened to haf many shuai RI guys there. den we walked arnd quite a lot.. cos we all seemed to b v free. but broke. den we went to look for linying they all at sakae.. n linying, stellicia n huiyi were commenting on my eye bags. cos v v swollen. 1 said it looks black.. 1 said looks red.. the other said looks brown. so er.. ok... den linying say i looked like i put on eyeshadow.. juz tt itz below the eyes n not on the eyelids. --" but yeah my eyes were realli hurting. even the skin.
hmm den i reached toa payoh sports hall at 1+. when the bus was reaching the bus stop.. spotted junhong n the grp walking towards the sports hall. so i got off n rushed aft them. anw i was alone. cos every1 pang seh me. but it was okok lor. it was quite interesting.. n even more interesting to listen to their coach talk. haha n the way he said abt chen shao falling on his butt ytd was funny. "pi4 gu3 diao4 zai4 di4 shang4." yeah heard a lot from him abt the team too la.. oops is tt counted as eavesdropping. dun think so rite. he was juz talking quite loudly. ok la audibly.
den came their event. wah i was nervous all over n zuo4 li4 bu4 an1 again. but i found sth amusing!! hahaha cos they were all standing in a grp holding their gun4s. n they looked like they were frm the beggar sect! hahaha found tt v funny. uhh oops nvm.. anw they r damn pro. hahha ya it was v v nice. v well done la. even their coach said so. but he insisted tt he heard 2 gun4s knocking into each other. but i din hear leh even though i was in front of him. anw nvm it was realli zai. but hafta admit tt the rest were gd too.. even though umm ya i was hoping tt they wldnt do as well. haha oops again. but those grps tt got higher scores.. i think tt not all of them r exactly better lo. mayb being the 1st up is not tt gd. cos i think no matter how objective the judges r n stuff.. they r still humans la.. so ya..
den stayed for prize presentation cos i started having gastric pain.. so thot i wld feel better aft sitting for a while. ya n i stayed thruout cos the pain din go awae.. so i sit there n geked all the way. geked all the way home too.. 2 hours plus in all. damn pain la. oh n during the prize presentaton haha hci A div girls got 2nd in overall! but there wasnt even any A div girls down there at the carpet. so uh kelvin had to represent them. n it was v funny la haha.
abt other stuff.. ive cried it out. so hard tt it hurts. but i hafnt cried it all out.. hai guess tts not possible. i duno wad else to do la. juz saying wad i think wld juz provoke u n make things worse. n so i cant make anything better liao la. probably juz to leave u alone. i'll juz numb myself abt this i guess. juz let it settle by itself. i realli realli realli hope tt by the time this cools down n we cool down, we can be friends again.
why cant my tears just run out? i dun want to cry to sleep anymore.
time;9:00 PM
my mood today was totalli crap. 1 gd thing is there r no lesosns tmr. sports meet n half day.. so yeah. todae realli nth in particular during lessons. i was crying in class during lunch. no one noticed anw.
n thanks to rachel sim! managed to drag her along last minute to manjusri sec. we left sch at 3.30. cos she went back to the hostel.. n i was doing chem hw. so ya.. in the end we were late. v gek la. n my mood was realli realli bad. had a v bad headache.. n was tired la. so uh v v sorry to jun hong for being so stoned when u were talking to me. i was uh actualli abt to cry when jh approached me. haiya my mood juz isnt gd la.
haha n again tong's 339 guy the darren tan was in the same event again. yeah his jian is pro. changquan too. den um. rach sim saw another better looking de. 415.. ya his dao is pro.
anw im glad tt rach sim went today.. n tong n kaiming went on mon. cos they r ppl who can juz tok n tok so ya. esp km. he was er sayign lame jokes n crap. yeah made me feel better for a while i guess.
y was i in a bad mood.. same stuff frm ytd. which was frm the day b4. theres onli a thin line btwn love n hatred. n i am beginning to hate this now. but i dun noe y i still bother. mixed crapped up feelings i guess
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anw todae i wasnt feeling gd. still got a little of headache. plus pe! supp to run 4 n 1/3 rounds. den wah i run n cough like siao. den ms loo saw n at the 3rd round she sae juz finish tt round. ya it was terrible. n napfa is next week!! )= den had tennis assessment. i was damn tired liao. plus i was stressed. hahaha. so played like shit la. warming up tt time already almost all the balls nv pass the net or fly to dunno where. den played against sinyu. n it was bad hahaha. kept going out.. cos using half court but ya to baseline la. groundstroke is fine but footwork no good so position wrong so ball anyhow fly. bleah. nvm.
den math dunno wad la laughing like siao again. sarah la. kept yawning during chinese compre. ha n kx kept dozing off. eng was pratically nth. so yeah.
haiya nth nth liao la. sian. tmr got chem test. DIE.
time;6:35 PM
for the whole day i was fretting.. counting down.. stressing out. dont know y too. everytime i say, "5 more hours" den subsequently "3 more hours" n stuff.. den everyone will sian diao. haha cos they knew wad i was talking abt. haiya. n i was having a freaking bad headache for the whole day!!!! was sleeping openly in class during chinese. dai lao shi din realli bother la.
anw yayy managed to drag kaiming n tong along! took 67. but um we din realli noe where to alight. i onli knew it was lorong 11!! got off.. den er walked in the rain.. crossed the dangerous roads.. walkedlike siao.. asked around. n this lady told us lorong 17! so um we walked all the way back to where we came from.. asked around.. den our intuition brought us there! it was realli far la. n i was v kan chiong. walked damn fast. even kaiming crosscountry de also walked v slowly. den he was saying i can go compete in walkathon. ok nvm. cos i thot wld b late mahh. but anw iw as right abt the bus stop tts at lorong 11! i did better research than kaiming.
anw reached there.. wet from the rain n perspiration. realli terrible. plus im still ill! =/ hmm felt quite lost there.. dunno. okok lor. den tong n i saw this guy! 339. hahahha. den tong still went to check out the competitors' list to check out his name n stuff.. er ok. chung cheng de. n he was in the same event as kelvin too.
anw waited for long. haha den me n tong went down to eat vegetarian noodles! nice. b4 tt i bought a packet of milo for kaiming. but he din want!! so we played scissors paper stone. lose 3 times den dun hafta drink. haha cos he sae he alwayz lose. ahhaha in the end i lost! so i won. so he had to drink.
den kelvin's event! wah i was er hmm.. dunno how to say. anw the 339 guy is quite pro! den i started praying like siao. kelvin looked v tensed n serious. den aft tt he looked in my direction n gave a spastic smile. like er.. ok.. den his turn! v well done. considering tt back injury... itz realli v v well done. wad made me proud is tt u din give up at all.
den ended.. he stepped out n collapsed. i was like ouch.. totalli shattered. almost cried la. seeing u in pain is like ouch. den i was like at a lost la.. seeing him perspiring like siao n limping away in pain.
anw yeah he did realli well la. the perseverance. listened to limcc's comments too. haha.
den i din noe wad to do la. kaiming kept asking me to stay n kelvin kept asking me to go. so anw juz stayed arnd for a while den left.
n now im responsible if kaiing fails his chinese test tmr. haha cos i pulled on to him n made him stay with me till 6plus.
well done junhong n ainan. din get to watch jh's. haiya all at 1+. ainan was o.O haha cool. yeah. n tong stop saying he looks like squirt!
k again now i can only pray for the best. kelvin im sure u can do well in jian! yayy. hai hope ure feeling ok.
haiya im damn tired now. walked like siao. headache hasnt gone off at all for the whole day. anw bio test was fine! i guess. n i ponned math quiz tt i missed last time. supp to take aft sch but i was rushing off. so i hafta go early n do tmr.
anw manjusri sec is nice!! nice architecture. looks v cheena. but nice! looks like temple. but v ulu!! took so long to find. hai so ok tts abt it.
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